But at least this meme is really interesting. :)￼￼
￼( why I'm so free today..Collapse )
So i remember when i was 6 years old,, I have 2 childhood friends.. We were neighbor and so close. We spend our time together.
Went to school, play, and of course learn anything together..
We still keep in touch until now, but we got our own life, busy time, but our family is really close so we still know each other.. and when i talk about them right now, it made me miss them so much..
One moment that i remember is when we learned how to ride a bike.. One of them could play at first and suddenly the other one could play too.. I still remember the feeling when i feel left and so sad because it took time for me to learn how to ride it..
and that feeling,,, is the feeling that i feel now.. but unfortunately i dont feel sad..
If i'm being honest,, it feels like i really dont care,
THIS made me think,,,
How sincere i was.. and how cold i am now..
People is totally changed, of course i know it. It's about a 6 years old girl and 26 years old woman..
But the way i changed now, i'm honestly scared.. If this is going on,, what kind of person i will be??
In my life people can easily come and go..
I used to be a person who can maintain a friendship..
But now,, i just let it go..
It's okay if people said anything behind me..
It's okay if people tired of me..
It's okay if people hurt me..
I totally dont care.. It's really different from who i was..
I just cant be fake anymore.. all i have, the feelings, the expression, the attitude.. it shows up like natural..
It's not i'm dissapointed to myself.. NO! i always try to be a better person.. it's always be..
and all of this isn't about my whining..
But after writing what i'm thinking,, it feels good!
Someone said it. Just being natural,, do it with your own pace but still believe in yourself and you can bloom as a beautiful flower..
It will soon... to be.... ^____^